Deasangel's blog

i dont really have a lot to say today . first i like to start my saying merry christmas. and happy holidays and all that good stuff. in the coming weeks im a bit fearful of the future so many turns and twists but i have hope things will go easy. i still practice french. it gets better. i want to become a master. in fact once im done to check my accounts i will continue my studies. im still completly happy in my relationship. recently a friend was troubled and i got shaken about what it would mean but my cb was so cool a bout it and made me realize it was not such a big deal. i got mad i think for the first time. i was a lone in a situation i felt really in need, but i was strong. and all was okay i really thank ful to know i have changed this much to handle these difficult situations . work sucks as always. i was promised once again to start learning a new position. but who knows i think its a nother lie to me. everyone says stand up to them and there injustices to me. but im so tired to shout and scream for things that just dont change. if i really want the positon i will over come the obstacle and take it. i worry that i behave strangely lately towards people and my friends
i have been really closed off. i dont like where that is going. but i will try to change it before its too late. i think about Feb14. it will be my first time with someone who hasnt broken my heart. we made it thru december with out troubles and we are know 7months soon 8 its so amazing i really have trust like i never had. so i am happy. and content not to need for anything ever again. cb will be gone more over the next weeks that makes me alittle sad but what can i do this is the life . just be strong. and there. i will be strong i have too

memories of yesterday.
to wake up filled with love.
swept up into it i just dont know it feels so good
to know you are loved and some one loves you back
music carries you away
but nothing is better then being carried away by the song of another and your own
in perfect harmony
the you and me to gether and free
to love gracefully
the pitter pattering of my beating heart rushing ruby red blood
throught my body.
it keeps me alive
and being alive i can see clearly
this is me
the other one
made for me
and i made for he/she
i would say if this wasnt me and i was just describing the feeling
but it isnt just a feeling its my feeling its my love
my freedoms rejocing my songs of euphoric pleasure
back to the beinging
the memories
the days
the love at first sight the i love you
so deep inside me im filled till i will burst and i do
the 20 year old boy who finally has love how long will it last
forever
how long will i love forever
how long will i be loved forever it was just a word in a dream a saying that just seems
it was love for me purly and i gave it back clearly so it will be the 20 year old boy who finally
finally has love you see carried back to the first sight back to the begining when i said you were made for me and i i was made to be for you
(ilycbooybbm)